I pretend that I am ok
That I’m strong
I got this
No one sees through the mask
How I am fighting
Trying not to fall apart
Trying not to let you win again
The feelings are back
Anger
Frustration
Even shutting down
I am struggling
Bottling the feelings
That I can’t show
It’s not ok
To cry in front of someone
Personal struggles are back
Frustration creeping in
Feeling broken
Yet again
Struggling to let people in
Allowing to feel loved
Accepting a complaint
I can’t
Something stops me
Words of not worthy
They are fake
No one means the words
These struggles are real
All because of one
Maybe many
I want to feel normal
Accepted
Know it’s truly ok
Ok to cry
Ok to feel love
I’m tired
Tired of struggling
