Screaming

 Back in the void

Darkness surrounds me

No lights shining in

I fall to my knees

My head down

The feeling creeping up

Only wanting to push it down

I look up

I scream

The sound so loud

You’d think I was being murdered

The screams kept coming

My eyes shut tight

Arms wrapped around me

Screaming as loud as I can

The release won’t come

All I want to do is feel normal

Like the world isn’t caving

I finally stop

Out of breathe

I open my eyes

I feel the ground shaking

Beginning to crack 

I need to hold on

Nothing to grasp

The ground crumbling around me

Nothing around me

Darkness continues to surround me

I scream again

Keep losing my breath 

Wanting to feel something

Something that doesn’t feel like I’m smothered

All I feel is like I’m falling 

The falling continues

Til I fall in water

In the deepest depths of the ocean

Nothing to grab onto

Barely keeping my head up

Screaming for help

No one to hear me

Again I am alone

Drowning

Falling

Can’t breath

Screaming

I have no more energy

Somehow I am surviving 

I don’t know how I am

I just keep treading water

Hoping I can keep holding on