Object

 I want to feel something

Anything

Yet I want to be numb

Feeling nothing

All at the same time

I want to feel wanted

Loved

Something

Falling into bad habits

My way of coping

Out it goes

One pic, two, three

Gradually getting sexier

Making the person wanting more 

Feeling something

Out goes another

And another

But, is this me

Am I trying to cope

Trying to numb

Still trying to feel

Becoming an object of someone’s pleasure

Knowing the outcome 

Filling their desires

Ignoring mine

Not sure the accomplishment I’m after

What attention am I seeking

Validation

Feeling worthy

Wanted

I don’t know

I am an object now

To someone’s game

I am playing into it

I crave something

But what