Insecurities

 Why does the past haunt me

It doesn’t make sense

The most weird times

There is a trigger

Maybe a sound

Even a smell

My thoughts go running

I want to question the person I love

Feeling insecure about everything

Floods me 

I fight the rising waters

I try to tread and keep my head above

Not let my sink

What if he lied

Just like everyone else

I am just stupid to believe

I know he wouldn’t hurt me

Do I really know

It’s a man that lives so far away

The trust is based on words and actions

Learning to read tone

That’s just it

The tone shakes

The thoughts he has stays buried deep

I feel so lost

Because I can’t help calm his mind

Just like all the others 

The words that escape

I feel only bring more pain

Flooding of more words

Drowning 

Fighting

Pretending everything is ok

Instead I fight

Fight the only way I know

Push 

Keep pushing

Brat out

It’ll be fine

The thoughts will settle

They always do

I have to believe 

No reason for me to 

My love has to prevail

His does too

The deep insecurity 

Continues to fall into the deep blue

No light can shine

Hopes it all ends

Truth will finally show

It has too, right