I Feel Alone

 I feel alone

In a room full of people

The crowds in front of me

Chatter amongst themselves 

Not even seeing me

As I stand in the middle

Watching as they all walk by

I try and call out 

No one turns around

Not a single one can hear

The voice that is deep within

I feel alone

In this world

When it’s full of people

Told they are there

Yet they never show up

I feel alone

When I try and talk

No words I say can resonate

They look at me

Staring at me

Trying to hear me

 Not understanding 

I feel alone 

If I disappeared would they care

Would they notice

Would they even look for me

I feel alone

If I open my mouth

The wrong thing is said

I pushed them too far

I said too much

I become….

I feel very alone

Right now how do I fix it

I have to trust

Let you in

Unlock my doors

Open the windows

Tell the guards to stand down

I don’t know how 

Feeling all alone

When all you want to do are things you can’t

Things you shouldn’t 

Somehow you have to act like you care

You’re hurting them not you

Don’t be selfish it’s about them

Right

If you feel the pain 

You feel alone it’s always about them

I feel so very alone

With you staring at me

Telling me you hear me

Accuse me of being selfish

Telling me I can’t keep my word

When all I do is just that

I fucking care

I try to make everyone happy

Yet I AM SO ALONE

You say you understand 

Yet you don’t understand why

Why I feel such a way

Then act like you don’t care

You stopped listening to me

I am now too much

I said I feel alone

I am too needy

I said I feel alone

I overthink and need assurances

I feel alone don’t you hear me

I’ll find a corner

Sit there and stop standing

Standing in the middle

No one can see me anyway