Am I Worth It?

 Am I worth it?

Am I worth the message you send daily

The call you make

What about the comment you said

Telling me I am beautiful 

Am I truly worth it?

Seeing the scars on my body

The weight that I carry

My shoulders being heavy

The trauma I face

Am I worth it?

The darkest days

The ones still to come

Days of self doubt

Overthinking 

Racing thoughts

Even the ideations

Does that make me worth it?

I watch you turn your back

Walking away

Will turn around

Face me another day 

Look at the scars on my arms and chest

What about my legs 

The hair that shows 

That no lady should bare

Yet, here we are 

Am I still worth it?

I stand there

Ready to collapse

I am tired of fighting and chasing

I have nothing left

For if you walk away

Then go and don’t come back

If you choose to stay 

Then don’t break my heart

The breath I have

Is all I have left

The voice is slowly going

The hope I have is no more

I begin to fear

That I am no longer worth your time

No matter the lies or truth you tell me

At the end of the day

Am I worth it?