Emotions

 I know I am shutting down

Closing the trust we built

I don’t know anymore

What is in store of us

In three months

A year

Will you still be here

I feel this shift happening

One I wish I didn’t feel

Big emotions are trying to surface

Instead I bury them

I want to tell everyone I’m fine

There isn’t anything anyone can do

I’m forcing myself to eat

The nausea hits me hard

What can I do

Not to be hunched over

Crying and screaming

Trying to believe every word you say

Yet not believing you at all

Written 8/30/2026