Shutdown

 you feel your tears stopping

as they once flowed down your cheek

you begin to feel the blank stare

the one that consumes you

you start to get in tune with your body

you realize that your battle is about lost

 

you continue to stare off into space

with that blank look on your face

you feel your body turning off every emotion

one by one by one

you feel the anger part of you turn off

then the hurt goes away

both filled up with a numbness

one you know too well

 

you fight to keep them turned on

as you feel the emotions shutting down

with one emotion left

which is the one of love

 

to keep that one intact

for if that gets shutdown

then you will be on autopilot

just trying to survive this world

trying to survive everything around you

 

you feel the last hope of love go quiet

your body fills up with this numbing feeling

the one you have fought to keep away

you stare off into space

as the last tear falls

for your emotions have now shutdown

 

and nothing can turn them on

nothing but time and friends

Written: 2017