Sunday, May 19, 2024

PTSD Attack




The sound of the water drops flowing down your skin

I drop down to my knees

Hands over my eyes

Tears blend with the water

Unable to catch my breath


Images of that evening flash in my head

Hearing the sounds of the rain fall

Sounds of the accident


My breathing becomes shallow

Harder to breathe

I stand

Hoping it will make it better

It just makes it worse


Needing to get out

Can’t stand the water hitting my skin

I force myself to turn off the water

As I crawl out of the shower

Still unable to breath

Crawling to the bed

I need to sit

I need to breath


Tears flow more

Not covered by the water

Sounds escape my lips

I try and muffle the tears

The hyperventilation

No one can hear me


5

4

3

2

1


I keep telling to myself

Keep counting down

Count the objects I see


My breath beings to slow

The tears slowly stop

I begin to dress

Pretend I’m ok



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