TW - My Past

 My Past....

It's apart of me

The Pain

The Hurt

The Lies

My Past

 

My Past

Going to hell and back

Dealing with adult issues at 13

Dealing with councilors all through school

My Past

 

My Past is a long brick road

that was laid by hand

the stones laid where they could fit

nothing in it's right place

My Past

 

My Past

Has depression so deep and dark

It consumed me with every breathe

Every light slowly losing it's fight

The blood begins to fall

The pain begins to go numb

My Past

 

My Past

I do not feel anything

I am afraid of your touch

I am afraid of you holding me

I am afraid of your words

I am afraid of your promises

My Past

 

I am torn in two

While the dark fights hard

to keep me where it wants me

to no longer feel pain

the cold blade against my skin

and the blood begins to fall

still no pain

I have suppressed it all

I no longer feel

My Past

 

Written 2017