You Didn't See That

You stare at me

Listening

Thinking

Wondering

What will I say next

 

You didn't imagine that

With the tears streaming down

The guilt

The hurt

The pain

Even the filth that I feel

You didn't see that

 

I look at you

As I tell you

What was done

The violation

The broken trust

The non-consent

You didn't see that

 

You were hoping for something

You didn't see that

The tears rushing down

The pain in my eyes

You didn't see that

 

I looked at you as I told you

What he did

The realization of it all

You keep staring at me

Thinking silently

You sure didn't see that

 

You lean in to hug me

And the tears rushing down

How do you still want me

When I caused you pain

Yet, you didn't see that

 

You hold me and tell me

I will be ok

Not now

Not tomorrow

But, I will be someday

Written 1/7/2018