I Say I’m Fine

 

Written: 6/16/24

I tell you I am fine

With one look

Tears slowly form

For you see right through me

I see the exhaustion on your face

Tired of fighting

I hold back for not wanting to burden you

For the stress you have

So much bigger

I let you talk

Enjoy your words

It’s one more moment with you

I look at you

Knowing I can be too much

Even for you at times

Though you’d never tell me

At times I can sense it

Backing off 

Wait for you to come to me

Tell me you love me

Remind me about meds

Don’t forget to eat

Both of us know

I can’t remember either

As tears stream down

Emotions swell

All I want to do is

Curl up or talk too fast

Neither one is good

I do my best to explain

Not make you feel bad

Fearing I do a bad job

I just feel worse

Cheeks get redder 

As tears warm them

Trying to remember

You are not them

My brain tells me you’ll just hide like all the rest

Apologizing once again

For my brain trying to deceive me once again