Staying Afloat

 Written 9/7/2022

I’m drowning

I’m trying to stay afloat

Trying to be there for everyone

Be what I am supposed to be

I’m drowning 

I’m kicking and trying to stay afloat

Being told I need to get over it

Being told I eat too much

Or too little

Being on the verge of being sick

When I look at food

The bulimia part of me wants to come back

I am fighting it

Now I have to check in

Saying I am eating

Taking meds