Tears Forming

 Written 9/7/2022

”Are you mad at me”

“No”

I keep hearing people ask

I don’t know any other response

I am not all there

Nor do I know how 

Papers scattered across a desk

Looking at what to do

Trying to concentrate 

Can’t think where to begin

Hands on my temples

As I try to concentrate 

The tears begin to form

With knocks on my door

People needing me

I don’t know how to do this

Wiping the tears away 

I tell people to come

Talking about the next project

Next meeting

All I want for them to leave

Doors closed

The tears want to come

They won’t stop

I don’t know how to make them

I’m not cut out for this

How much more

Can I take

Is this going to last