Not Wanted

 Feeling pushed out the door

Not able to turn back

Hands slipping off the knob

Only to grip tighter

All I want to do is call your name

Somehow I feel you’re not there

Your words behind the door

The pain if flowing deep inside

This time is different 

As it seems

I’m no longer wanted

No longer loved

You telling me to go

Saying how I feel

As the door closes

A slight thud

As the door hit the frame 

Feeling so alone

Standing outside

Wishing I was back in

Those days are gone

I only fear

Nowhere to turn

Sliding down the door

Letting my hand fall 

Why

Why I am so undesirable

What did I do wrong

For someone to not want me

After all these years

Feeling all alone

When I felt so safe

Everything around me changed

I’m trying to survive