Never Enough

Another letter went to you

Begging you to answer

What are we

I just need to know

Yet, you don’t want to answer

For whatever fear may come out of this

For me, I know what I want

Yet, you are too scared

I am sorry I fell for you

I wish I didn’t

If I didn’t I wouldn’t be here

Confused and wanting more

Something you can’t seem to provide

Instead you push me

Telling me to go

In your own way you want me to walk

To leave you 

This is the feeling I get

You push me to another

I scream at you

Wanting you to stop

To just love me

Like the way I want you to love me

Tell me to go

Date another

You do not want me

At least how I feel

Pushed to the side

Pretending I’m not there

The thoughts come racing

Knowing I’m not good enough

I’ll never be 

Nothing I saw will change 

You keep pushing me

Begging me to see others

I have your collar

I thought 

It doesn’t matter

Protection is what it is

Nothing to do with with love

Do you even love me

Are they just words 

Words to please me

You know I want to hear them

I am only good as a mistress

Nothing more

I am always replaceable 

Left to the side

Never enough

I am sorry

Sorry I loved you

Begged you for things

That are making you change your mind

Telling me I am putting a wedge between us

I am sorry I am your pain

I am your grief

Your heartache

I thought I was doing better

Instead

I am not enough

Never enough