Next Attack

 I stare blankly out in the world

Wondering

Watching

Waiting

For the next attack

Hoping it’s not going to be me

 

You come in like a raging storm

The yelling

Screaming

Accusations

Of everything that I am

 

The pain

The hurt

The scars and blood

You have no clue

What you just did to me

 

You give me no time to heal

No time to think

No time to deal

Before you start again

 

I no longer feel

The love

The pain

The hurt

I had to turn it off

 

Like a power outage

With no time frame

Of the healing

I can no longer feel you

I can no longer love you

If I try I will hate you

 

For now

I no longer feel you

I no longer love you

I try not to hate you

I need to survive

You gave me no choice

 

I sit here

Wondering

Watching

Waiting

For the next attack

Written: 2018