Torment

 You are no longer here

Yet you are in my head

It’s like  we are connected

Like you can talk to me

Telling me everything again

Using my past against me

Telling me how I only need you

 

You are still tormenting me

Your words still haunt me

I still feel your hands

Touching me

 

All I can hear is selfishness

Nothing more

How could I be blind

How did I let you in

 

You snuck in when I was down

When I was hurt

Battered

Bruised

You swoop in trying to protect me

Instead you hurt me

Even worse

 

You told me he didn’t care

Twisted what I said

Just for your pleasure

For your gain

What did that do for you

 

In the end it made me leave

Your hurt was the last straw

I became even more raw

Broken

Battered

Bruised

Even tormented

 

You slither in my head

When I try to sleep

I hear what you said

The words do not leave

I try not to hear you

You hang on

 

You said you cared

You said you loved me

You said so many things

Everything I wanted to hear

Yet you hurt me

You played the mind game

 

Why

Why did you do this

Why did you use what I said

Against me

Was it to hurt me

Was it so I could be yours

 

It did not work

The lies caught up

The secrets came up

You could not hide

You were exposed

All you of you

 

Everything about you

Exposed

The hurt is now there

You left me wounded

You left me battered

You left me hurt beyond belief

You left me raw

Even left me bruised

 

No one is here to pick up

What you left

The pieces you said you would

The hurt is that bad

You destroyed me

 

Will I ever come back

Will I ever be me

Will I ever be fixed

Someday

Someday

Written: 2018