Raw

 I am hurt

I am battered

I am raw

I am buried deep inside

 

You left me when I needed you

For days you left me

You left me in shock

You left me to deal

I understand to a point

but, you were not there

 

You still turn your back

when I need you the most

The words you say dig in deeper

to the wounds that are already there

 

Everyday it gets harder to breath

harder to stay afloat

harder to function

harder to survive

with the hurtful words flowing

 

I am emotionally drained

I am mentally drained

I can't help no more

I have stayed strong far to long

I am only one person

 

I am crumbling beneath the hurt

beneath the your feet

as you smother me

with what life I have left.

 

I try to stand up and fight

just to get knocked back down

for it seems like

you don't want me to survive.

 

You don't want me to live

the words you use show me that

you like to see me in pain

you like to see me raw and bruised

 

please just let me breathe

without all the hurt you throw my way

Written between 2017 and 2018