TW - No One

 There you are

You are little and white

And I stare you down

What would happen

If I took you

Would anyone care

 

I stare you down

And wonder how many

How many I need

For me not to come back

 

Will all of them do

Do I need everything

Everything I own

 

If I mix them all

Then surely I won't be here

No one will care

Would they

 

The pain runs deep

The hurt is even further

The blank stare I have

Is my lost soul screaming

 

I have shut it up

Shut you out

Shut it off

So I can not feel

Who am I going to hurt

Only myself

 

Who will miss me

Surely no one

Everyone thinks I am a liar

All I do is backstab

 

Surely no one

Will miss me

If I go through with this

Who really will

 

You?

Will you really?

I highly doubt it?

All I do is cause you pain

 

I hurt everyone

I seem to lie to everyone

I apparently am a backstabber

No one wants me

 

Everyone laughs

Laughs to my face

Point their fingers

Watch my life fuck up

 

They know what they are doing

They know they are bullies

They don't care

They don't care they have pushed me

Pushed me so close

 

A or B

That is my choice

Who do I do choose

Maybe C.

Maybe all

Who do I choose

 

No one will miss me

Written summer 2016